The more I get rejected and more I fail, the more it motivates me: Sheldon Jackson

What do you think led to Saurashtra clinching the Ranji Trophy title this year?

We were extremely disciplined to begin with and operated with a clear goal in mind and that’s what ultimately helped. I truly feel that all the players who are playing for Saurashtra are very highly skilled and we are such a side that has players for mostly all conditions.

Only if you leave out Arpit Vasavada who has done well in all conditions and hence scored 900 odd runs, if you see, me, Chirag Jaani, we all aggregated somewhere around 600-650 runs so that’s why I feel we had very skilled players who knew their roles to perfection and had ample experience leading into the season.

Even our youngsters, Harvik Desai for that matter had 30-35 matches under his belt and had played enough crunch games which helped us as a bunch to succeed. Our players had understanding of what was needed from them and they managed to put the team above everything else and that played a crucial role.

What were the challenges that you guys faced as a bunch during the entire Ranji Trophy campaign?

I don’t want to sound very rude or arrogant about this but I think we were only outplayed in one match and that was against Andhra when Andhra beat us at home (Elite, Group B match).

Besides that, we also felt challenged against Punjab and I think the Punjab match was a miracle from where we won and how we won it. It was a result of one player’s brilliant effort (Parth Bhut) in both the innings with the bat and ball. The punjab side challenged us in every department.

Can we really say that Saurashtra have now become a force to be reckoned with?

Saurashtra have been doing very well for the last ten years. If I’m not wrong we’ve played seven to eight finals (in the last decade) that means every second year or every one and a half year we are playing a final and out of that we have won three and lost I think four.

So, Saurashtra in the last ten years have become a force, it’s just that people have started accepting it now. Before that I think people used to think ki haan chalo yaar ek baar ho gaya (Alright, it’s just a one time wonder).

They didn’t consider us a force or a dominant side but after this win (Ranji Trophy triumph), I’ve  seen legends of the game tweeting and acknowledging Saurashtra as a force which for me as a player who’s been there in Saurshtra’s cricketing circles for so long feels really satisfying to see.

You were the Player of the Match in the Vijay Hazare Trophy 2022 finals against Maharashtra. Kindly talk us through your innings?

So, throughout that tournament I got one hundred, one fifty and few thirties here and there. Before that innings (hundred in the final) I had spoken to one of my coaches. I said, “sir, I’m a little low on confidence I know it’s bound to happen but I’m not scoring runs and still getting an opportunity to play. How do I take this game from here?”

He gave me confidence and told me to just focus on the next delivery and I just followed that. I played every ball to its merit till I didn’t get my eyes in. When you are going through a lean patch and manage to hit two balls from the middle of the bat and see them pierce the gap, suddenly the confidence comes roaring back.

Luckily for me that happened and I won’t say it happened very early in the innings but it happened around the 25th or 30th ball of my innings (in the final) and I started getting that confidence back.

I started moving decently well and from there I didn’t want to give it away. I wanted to make the most out of it and to be honest we were not chasing a big target. So I even had the luxury of time with me for that innings because our bowlers had done really well to restrict them to 248. I didn’t feel any rush of blood or anything.

You don’t get such opportunities in your life many times to become the hero of the final and to win your state a prestigious tournament. Hence, during my innings I kept telling myself that now you are set and just take the team as close as possible and god willing I did it and was very satisfied and very happy after that
innings.

How did your initial IPL stint with Royal Challengers Bangalore pan out?

2013 was my first year in the IPL and that time I was very raw. It was also my first year in domestic cricket and hence was very raw in every way – in terms of my game, my personality among others. I joined the RCB camp and I saw Virat Kohli, I saw AB (de Villiers), Chris Gayle and all the legends of the game.

Even by just looking at Virat Kohli I realised that I’m not even worthy to be called a cricketer. The sacrifices he made, the efforts he was putting on and off the field. For me, it was the first time that I saw something like that so it was a very new learning curve for me.

Before that I had nothing to do with fitness, literally nothing and after that I can say that my entire cricketing life changed. I saw Virat then, he was already at the peak of his game, he was dominating world cricket. For a man who was dominating world cricket and to get to see his work ethics from close quarters was just amazing and I learnt a lot from my time at RCB.

Despite scoring runs consistently in the domestic circuit, you couldn’t replicate the same rich vein of form in the IPL while playing for Kolkata Knight Riders. What do you think were the reasons behind the same?

It was me. There’s no other reason that I would like to pinpoint. I could have been a lot smarter been a lot more prepared for the slots that I was batting in. There are no excuses here. I failed to deliver. When I get success I take full credit similarly when I fail I take full credit.

Many people tell me that I was batting out of order. That’s their point but my point is that I got an opportunity and I’m thankful to KKR for giving me such opportunity. I could not make the most out of it and I’ll  live with it. You have to make peace with it because that’s how the game is.

In September 2019 you put out a tweet that read, “I’m told not to question but I strongly believe that we represent this beautiful organization and association and we as players surely deserve to know why and where we lack or else our careers are just going to end wondering why, and selection should be transparent.” When you say transparent what exactly do you mean by that and has the mechanism of selection improved according to you since then?

I don’t wanna talk about selection anymore to be honest because I have already said whatever I had to say. As far as transparency is concerned, I think it will change with time. But the other thing is that I’ve said it before and I’m still saying it that we are spoiled with choices. We have so much of talent that many times performances just go unnoticed and you cannot do anything about it.

Despite getting ignored by selectors how do you still find the motivation of going out on the field and giving your best day in day out?

I think the answer lies in your question. I think if I go out and I keep scoring then that gives me a certain joy as I manage to prove people wrong.

I believe that age has nothing to do with the sport, at any age you can play at any level. It has nothing to do with the sport as long as you are fit for the sport so that motivates me. I can say rejection and failure keep motivating me. The more I get rejected and more I fail the more it motivates me.

How has been the support from your family?

My family has contributed immensely and they have played a pivotal role in helping me grow as a professional. They have always been there for me throughout the trying times and it has worked wonders for me. In addition to that, I am also highly grateful to the income tax department. I work for them and I can’t thank them enough for their constant support.

What according to you has been the lowest point in your career?

Definitely not doing well in the IPL. I had worked very hard for those opportunities. I had worked very hard to make my come back to the league. But after not doing well at that time I kind of felt like a failure. I felt like the sport was betraying me and that time was the lowest point of my life. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I didn’t  want to see anyone.

Is the goal of playing for India one day still strong enough? 

The goal is never gonna die till the time I’m playing. It’s always gonna be there. Whether you achieve that or not is secondary but the goal is always to play for the country.